The Voice of Truth
Early on in both Ayden and Wyatt’s life God revealed a song to me about each of them that describes them and what I see for them in the future. Both of the songs fit their personalities so well. Ayden’s song is Lead Me by Sanctus Reel. Since Ayden started walking and talking I knew without a doubt that he was a born leader. The way he is among other kids, the way he is with adults and how he acts in general shows me that he has leadership qualities. My prayer for him is that he will remember that no matter how strong he thinks he is, he needs God to lead him so he can lead others. For Wyatt the song is The Voice of Truth by Casting Crowns. This is a great song for Wyatt. When I hear the words to this song I automatically think of Wyatt and how throughout his life he is going to have all kinds of voices talking to him – doctors and society in general. But, Wyatt will need to focus on the Voice of Truth and what God says rather than what the doctors say he can or cannot do. I have already seen this as we work on his eye sight.
We have struggled with Wyatt’s eyesight since he was about 2 months old. When he was 3 weeks old he had a complete eye screening to make sure that his eyes worked and that everything was connected inside of them. At that point everything looked fine. At 2 months old we had his eyes checked again because he was not tracking certain things. Once we had an ophthalmologist take a look at Wyatt they noticed that his eyes would turn outward from time to time. So, we started patching his eyes. We would patch one side for 2 hours a day and then the other side for 2 hours the next day. Wyatt hated the patching and so did we. He would cry and just generally be mad about it.
The next month we went back to the Ophthalmologist. He seemed to think that nothing had changed and that he was not even sure that Wyatt was seeing anything at all. He had no idea what to tell us. He said that Wyatt could possibly have delayed eye maturation, where at some point when he is between 6 and 12 months of age he could wake up one day and be able to see. The doctor seemed to think that we did not need to patch anymore as he did not think it would help. The doctor also came out and said that he had not even reviewed the MRI test before our appointment – he wanted the test to be done in the first place. The doctor said that he wanted us to come back in 3 months and we would see what was going on at that point. This appointment was very frustrating for me. I KNOW that my baby can see me. He looks at me. He looks at my husband, at my other son and at his hands. There are many times that he will follow toys in front of his face. I just wish that Wyatt could tell us what was going on so that we could have a definite answer. I know without a doubt that Wyatt is not blind.
Because of my frustrations with the doctor and the appointment I decided to get a second opinion. While I was working one day I talked to three different people within 10 minutes who all recommended I take Wyatt to Dr. Myles Burke. I decided that it was a sign from God that we needed to go. So, I was on the phone that day and made an appointment. We will be going to this appointment at the end of January. I think that we will have a very different outcome from this appointment than the others.
If I just sit around and listen to every doctor and everything they say I may waste valuable time that we could be using to do something else. I cannot do this. I cannot waste valuable time, especially when it comes to his eyesight. Wyatt is too important. I am sure that Wyatt will struggle with this kind of thing for the rest of his life. He will have people who will tell him that he may not be able to do something. I will continue to remind Wyatt that he needs to keep his eyes focused on God and listen to His voice rather than the rest.
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes to climb out of this boat I’m in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
To the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He’s holding out his hand
But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I’ve tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. ‘Boy, you’ll never win!’
“You’ll never win”
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
And the voice of truth says “Do not be afraid!”
And the voice of truth says “This is for My glory”
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a Sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they’d have had the strength to stand
But the giant’s calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I’ve tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again “boy, you’ll never win!
“You’ll never win”
But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don’t seem so high
From on top of them looking down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
The Voice of Truth by: Casting Crowns
